By Tigerkey, edited and approved by Steellock

Note: This is a continuation of a story by Steellock. This chapter is by Tigerkey. To start at the very beginning, click here.

I keep dreaming of the different things that might happen to me in the hands of Jim, Jess and of course the Trucker while I can smell the leather around me. Having my mind going nonstop and not knowing what they might have in store for me, I wake up. I feel different as in not able to move and thinking Oh shit what’s happened to me, my arms and legs won’t move. But I didn’t know when I passed out that one of the thing’s I’d spoken to Jess about was being put on display on Matt’s bench in the window in some Segufix, but just the wrists and ankles.

He and Jim had helped this come to life and they had some nice pictures for keepsakes for me and the Trucker, and of course some for Jim to show how different sized people can fit into the gear he sells in the shop. So, in the end I come around and am not sure where I am until I realise that I’m being held by someone or something I start to move my head.

That’s when I hear someone saying something to me, but I can’t quite work out what they are saying and I said that I’m not sure I can hear you. I go to lift my hands up but then find I can’t move them very much, thinking that I have something that is covering my ears. Jess undoes the Segufix and finishes releasing the last fixings.

Jess comes over, seeing the Boi is coming awake but not able to hear very much as the he is in the SCFI hood, and knowing that he isn’t used to anything in OUR kink world or lifestyle he walks over to him. Jess is looking lost and is missing Matt already.  Releasing the Boi from the Segufix he helps him up into a sitting position then hugs him, and rubs his hands over his upper body, thinking that the Boi will need to do some body training and weights, like Jess himself used to need before Jim and Matt got him to where he is now.  Thinking this, he makes a mental note to pass his thoughts over to Jim in case he is needed to step into a trainer mode for this Boi, who is likely to be the Trucker’s personal willing sub/slave.  He starts to undo the hood so he and the Boi can have a chat and he can find out why he keeps passing out with everything that happens to him. He removes the hood after telling the Boi to close his eyes for a few moments. Obediently the Boi does this then the hood comes off his head.

I am lying on what seems to be the floor, but I am not sure as I groggily come around. Then the next thing I know some strong hands start to feel my sides, I don’t know who it is but then I’m sat up and feel a muscley body up close to me, supporting me. Then the hands feel all over the top half of me and I feel the hood loosen.  As this is going on I think I hear that the person holding me is Jess and, as the hood is loosened to the point that it can come off my head, I hear a bit more clearly.  He tells me to close my eyes for a few minutes, and I do as I am ASKED and then the hood comes off my head. I miss the closeness of the hood and the smell of the leather and, as this is the first time I have experienced it, this just leaves me a bit overwhelmed.  Which at the moment isn’t that hard to do. Like just walking into this shop for the first time and seeing it in real life, as I never thought in my LONELY LIFE I would ever do, but here I am.  Of all the people to wake up to it is Jess, with that body I could ONLY dream of having myself.

As I slowly open my eyes Jess is showing the concern of a lover as he checks that I am ok, and starts to say something else, but before he has a chance to say much I ask for a glass of water as I’m dry and need something to be able to talk.  When Jess comes back with the water, I drink the whole thing down and say thank you, I needed that, and I am so very sorry I passed out. Then I say that was a wonderful way to wake up, being held by him with that wonderful body of his. I quickly add that I’m jealous of how he looks, and he smiles at me, I’m not sure why but I don’t really care why. I’m just happy he was there, and I told him so.

Jess then starts by asking me why I seem to pass out and everything, so I briefly tell him that FIRSTLY I have just been watching the live stream from the shop and am alone with no one else in my life, as my parents died in a car crash. I was never any good making friends and working in the call centre I only talked to people at the end of a phone!  Being only 21 years old and finding that I had an interest in kink, but I never knew how to talk to people, or how to act in somewhere like Jim’s shop. I just get so scared that I panic and pass out. That’s why I never would walk in here alone, and the fact that I was very submissive and had read so many horror stories of kidnapped subs like me, I just couldn’t do anything alone. That’s why I asked for someone like you to meet me, as I dream of having the chance to meet you, Matt and Jim in real life.  When I had seen the demo of Jim’s latest work, then seen what I now know was the Trucker standing next to him and handing the control box over to this man, of all MEN, in my silly little mind I just had to know his name. That brings me to where I am now.

Jess looks at this Boi and is shocked, he is so inexperienced and so scared of EVERY GOD DAM THING IN THE WORLD. He thinks of just two things he needs to do; one is to hug him again and then ask his name as nobody knows it just yet.  ‘So, what do I call you, what’s your name, I can’t keep calling you Boi hah?’  I reply, ‘So sorry Jess, my name is Ben. Very pleased to meet you,’ holding out my hand for him to shake it.  He laughs and shakes it and then he said that we need to go and see Jim. He asked me to wait until you woke up and to bring you to his office so we can all get to know each other. So here we go, I start to shake again as I don’t know Jim and I’m scared of him, and ask Jess so what do I call Jim? Master or Sir or what?  Jess just told me to call him Jim unless he tells you different. As we walk into his office Jim smiles at me and Jess does the real introductions telling Jim that he only knows him as Boi but he is BEN he is scared a lot of the time. I will fill you in later, if that works for you.  Jim just nods his head and smiles ‘Hello Ben, nice to meet you, just call me Jim and I will tell the Trucker your name right now. He wants to know, and to know that you are ok and awake again. As we are OLD friends, I said I’d look after you.’

With that he got his phone out and sent the Trucker a quick message that Ben, your new toy Boi, is awake and is being well looked after; and to give Matt Jess’s hello. Then he tells the Trucker about the few pictures that he and Jess had taken of Ben in the Segufix. It was something Ben had told Jess was a dream of his, and how Jim could use a couple of them for marketing the bench and Segufix set up. He asked if, as the new Master of Ben, he was ok with the pictures going up on Jim’s website? The Trucker came back with a yes, but to make sure that Ben was ok with it.  After that Jim looked up at me and asked me if I was ok with the couple of pictures going on the website and shows me that my face wasn’t showing, as the SCIFI hood was on. I said that, as long as the Trucker is ok, then yes and Jim confirmed that he was. So why not! I love the fact that’s where Matt spends some time. Then Jim asked if I had my credit card as requested. I said yes and handed it over to him as he held his hand. He told me that I would need to trust him and that before I leave the shop, he would make sure that it ended up back in my hand again, and I said, ‘OK Sir.’  Jim smiled and told me again to call him Jim.

With that Jim told me we need to do some shopping, and this was going to be fun. He told me that the first thing the Trucker has already bought for me was the SCIFI HOOD THAT I HAD PASSED OUT IN and that the picture has already been sent to him. He has asked me to find you your FIRST, of what will be many pairs of new boots to wear. He would buy them and that he wanted me to wear the boots I pick out all the time and to put them on before doing any more shopping.  So, we walked over to the boots, and I looked around and saw a nice pair of DM boots and said, ‘I have never worn boots like this EVER.’ Jess and Jim look to where I’m looking and said that as I haven’t worn real boots then I should start with a pair with 14 lace holes as a very good starter pair.  I asked Jim what colour boots the Trucker wants me to have, and could I get a colour that doesn’t show I am wearing boots for work and daily life?  Jim chuckled and said that the Trucker wants you in his colours, so you need to get a red pair, and he said that you can get a second pair of plain, so I think that a black pair should be good for that.  I sat down and told them my size, which they already knew but do not tell me. Jess went off to the stock room and got the two pairs that were sitting there waiting already, with the BLUE laces to go with the RED boots and as Ben wouldn’t be wearing the black ones yet their laces are put in the box.  Out in the shop Ben asked what else he needed to buy to make the Trucker happy, and Jim showed Ben a chest harness in blue with a patch that could have someone’s name on it.  I said to Jim I wished it came with the Trucker’s name on it, and he said he could make that happen, but first we needed to get the rest of the things we needed for me.  After that he asked me what I liked about his shop and why I had only looked at it online, he has always been happy to help young Bois like me and I was free to ask anything about everything in his shop.  I didn’t have an answer other than I had been just scared and didn’t know how to address people in here, or him. I don’t want to disrespect anyone and have been a VERY BIG FAN of Jess first, then of Matt and wished I could be in their places on display or privately with my own Master.  For some reason I told him I’m still a virgin and everything is just scary to me and I loved watching his demos, especially when the Trucker stood next to him and was given the control box to whatever it was that Matt had on/in him at the time.

Jess had come back and was standing behind me listening to what had been said, and he just waited until Jim had said to Ben, ‘Jess has your boots and will show you everything to do with them, first he will show you how to put them on.’ I could see the red boots and asked why red?  Jim explained that’s the colours that the Trucker wanted him wearing his boots and laces and he want me to know that I am in training, but HIS. If you really want to be his SUB?  I told Jim HELL YES, I WANT TO BE HIS SUB! Jim said, ‘In that case you’re to wear the red boots when he wants you to, and they have blue laces as his truck is a DARK blue; so if someone sees you in them they know not to mess with you or they WILL ANSWER TO THE TRUCKER!’  I said, ‘Thank god, I wouldn’t want to upset Sir at all!’ Jess talked me through how to lace up and look after the boots and said that as I’d be going home with all the things that I’d need to look after them, and to clean them as well. Plus, he showed me the black boots and said he had an old pair in the same size and that are broken in. If I asked Jim first to have an old pair of Jess’s to start wearing for everyday and for work, and to make sure that I wore the new pair as much as possible too.

I asked Jim and he agreed that’s a great idea, so Jess went off after he told me about the socks I needed, and I got the laces into the boots. Jim also soon had me wearing a pair of his stock of jeans and explained that you need boot cut jeans. I asked if I could have them in black for work and the blue for outside of work? I was told I’d have 2 pairs of each in that case. Jess came back with all the jeans from stock and piled them on the counter. He had several lots of laces and said that when you take them out to wash them you can exchange them with another pair to MAKE SURE I was in the boots ALL THE TIME.  Next, Jim said I was asked by the Trucker if liked jock straps? To which I said that I’ve never worn them. Jim said that in that case I was to be told to take home 12 pairs and start to get used to them, as the Trucker wants to get you to wear them all the time, but he understands it takes time to get used to them.  So they were added to the growing pile of things and I asked what else does the trucker wanted me to buy, not even thinking of what I want. I’m sure Jim realised that too.

Next was a full set of butt plugs and lube and a realistic dildo about 7 inches long. I was told that these were all going to be needed and to ask the Trucker about them after I got home. To which I said OK.  Then he said you need cuffs and collar to go with your harness, all colour matching. Next a few t-shirts as well, in blue and black, all a bit too big. I didn’t question this.  The last thing I was told I had to have was going to be a chastity cage, and I was to have it on before I paid the bill! As this was the wish of the Trucker I asked if Jess could fit it to me? Jim said, clearly, ‘NO I HAVE TO BE THE ONE THAT DOES THAT AND I HAVE TO KEEP THE KEYS TOO!

I asked why, and I was told that as the keyholder for his friend’s sub he would be able to get me out of it if there was ever an EMERGENCY, and he would be the one to be contacted if and when the Trucker wasn’t around.  I said that sounded good and I was scared that I would never be able to get out of it! Jim smiled thinking ‘You never will be out of it unless it is for fun of course.’  So he asked ‘Are you willing for me to hook you up with it and to belong to the Trucker?’ I didn’t answer, I just dropped my jeans down and asked how he needed me to be? Jim sat down and told me to just spread my legs. Then, in a couple of minutes, I was locked up with a happy smile knowing the Trucker wanted me to be his!  I then pulled up my jeans and I went to walk away but was told to stay put as Jim had to take pictures of the cage locked onto me, so the Trucker knew I was willing to be his, and a couple of me dressed again and in my boots. They were then sent over to the Trucker.  I asked if there was anything else to do or to buy and Jim said NO, but I do need to do a couple of things as it was the weekend, I said ok and asked what did I need to do?

Jim said if I was ok with it, can I take all the new things home and hang them up and then take some pictures and send them to the Trucker showing that they are in my flat. Then I should spend a little while messaging the Trucker and to come back here in the morning.  I asked why I would need to be back in the morning? Jim said I would need to ask my Master that, as he was only allowed to ask me to come back. I said that was ok, I was a bit uneasy but said I would ask the Trucker about it. As I was paying the bill I was feeling nice in the boots the Trucker had bought for me in HIS OWN colours and realised I had a load of big bags to carry.  I asked if Jess could open the door and thanked them both for all their help and being so nice to me.

I walked out of the shop and, being really late at night, I didn’t think that anyone would be about. Being so so nervous being alone I looked around and thought I saw a shadow moving down an alleyway down a bit from the shop but then I thought that it was just my mind playing games with me. I started walking back to my flat to see what Jim was talking about but then thought I’d find out soon enough. So, home I went, thinking that I’d be speaking to the Trucker once I did the pictures and unpacked everything.

I returned to my flat with everything that I had bought and was thinking that this is ONLY the start of things, and what else could there be? Even though I knew I was willing and about to make my own decisions on things, I just wanted to be led into this whole world that was new to me.  As I went through the front door I was so happy to be back in my safe place, knowing that nothing outside could happen to me, and happy knowing that in some small way I could at least talk to Jess and Jim and ask questions.  So, with me looking at all the new things I had brought from the shop, it started me thinking of what I could do to thank the Trucker for buying me a few things, like a pair of boots with the laces in the Trucker’s colour and my own SCIFI hood, just like the one Matt wears most of the time?  I’m not sure what that is all about, but I wonder if I can ask more about this when I chat with him, and wonder if I needed to give him my number so he could chat to me more directly. So many questions, I hope he understands?

I went about hanging everything up and thinking how to best take the pictures and whether he knew I was home alone again?  After I’ve taken the pictures, I loaded up the laptop and waited for things to be ready, and I saw the picture of HIM on the screen. My hopefully now Master or Sir!  Then I saw an email that the Trucker had sent while I was in the shop, it looks like he was very worried that I had pasted out, and it mentioned the things Jim had been talking to me about.  Then it mentioned the chastity cage I was now in. I think he was waiting for me to think about this and wanting to know if I would submit to him.  So, Jim was telling me the truth; for me it is always hard to believe someone the first time I meet them as I have had so many people in the past who ended up screwing me over!  All this was so new I didn’t really think of much other than wanting to please the Trucker and just thinking and doing what I hoped he would want me to do.

At the end of the email, he asked if I felt safe with Jim and Jess, and if I did would I go back and put myself in their safe hands and he explained that I could say STOP at any time I wanted to.  Also, he asked if I would be willing to give him and Jim my mobile number so they didn’t need to do everything on email?  I sat there thinking about all this and then sent all my thoughts to the Trucker with as much honesty as I could, then I added my number at the bottom of the email. I said that Jim was welcome to it, IF he thought that it was best and safe for me, and to just give my number to him. I sent this and wondered when I would hear from him and then I went and got a stiff drink, knowing that I might need to settle down. So all I had ended up having was a beer, damn it I need to go shopping for food tomorrow!

So, after I opened the beer and took a good drink from it an email arrived from the Trucker saying I’ve just sent you a message on your phone and only after I know you have it can we start to talk.  I sent him a message from my phone saying I’m here Sir. I just went and sat on my bed as it was later than I wanted it to be, but happy to be able to chat to the Trucker privately of course.  He sent to say thank you Ben for submitting to him. Jim had emailed him about the things you, he and Jess had talked about and to let me know that Jess tells Jim EVERYTHING AND IS HONEST TO THE BONE!  I said that I was hoping that was the case as I still can’t believe that this is really happening, and that he was now in control of my cock. Also, that it’s trying to get hard just thinking of you and that I’m still dressed as I was in Jim’s last picture.  I was dying to know if he liked that I was in his colours, and asked if he could explain more about why I needed to be in his colours etc, and he answered all my questions on this. He said it was mostly for MY SAFETY. I was shocked to hear that, but at the same time grateful as well.  We spent about a couple of hours chatting about basic things and I ended up saying that I was falling asleep and didn’t want to stop but I might pass out, as it was a very full experience. To which he said that’s fine Boi.  I then see a quick message saying he was going to be up for a little longer but to check my emails in the morning as there were a few things he wanted to lay out about what he is hoping for and for me to read it carefully.  Finally he sent GOODNIGHT MY BOI TOY (winky face), so with that I fell asleep not bothering to undress, enjoying the feel of my new clothes and boots and was happy with the night as a whole. I had sent back GOODNIGHT SIR, and thanked him for taking me on and making me feel safe.

Meanwhile the trucker was thinking what a sweet, cute Boi, and if he played it right how he could make him feel safe as well as be his willing play toy, and then thinking he needed to know a lot more about him and what he is into. He needed to find out things and ask the right questions so they don’t go over the Bois limits and maybe, just maybe, we WILL be able to build this Boi Ben into everything that I wish and hope for. So let’s start with a few basics!

Ben, I need to know how you feel about a lot of the things I do in my truck and how I want to play with you. But this will be a working process and we will be going very slowly, even though I WILL push you, it will always be safely as I have high hopes for you.  Please answer these questions honestly and to the best of your ability. There are no wrong answers, I just need and want a base line to know where to start, and as you are brand new to this it is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT to be honest with each other. You know I have Matt in the truck, but he is very experienced, maybe someday we can do trips like this but with you being my proud Boi, happy to please me and to meet all the other people I meet in this world. Some of them are very good friends just like Jim is. That is why, until we meet up, he is the keyholder for you and that any time that you aren’t with me he is the next best person that I entrust with you, so hopefully you can learn to trust him as much as I do.  You will have a lot of questions and all of us will help you learn and try a lot of new things. For starters you do not play or get touched by anyone, the ONLY ones you are to trust in this are ME, Jim, Jess and lastly you will also get to know Matt, he is a good guy too and is going to be spending time with you. Please tell me all of the things you like and don’t like and what you dream of being, along with any fantasies you might have. Read and answer these things and we will talk as well. When I get back, we can hopefully spend some time together and, maybe when you are ready to do so, spend some nights with me. The longer the better please take your time to give all answers.

1. How do you feel about pain and what would you like to try?
2. Bondage how/if what types of bondage do you like the look of, or when you have wished that you were in the place of something, let’s say Matt or Jess has been in?
3. As you have seen the sort of things in Jim’s shop tell me what you like i.e. toys, gear as in hoods etc and even the clothing?
4. Have you thought of piss play or anything along those lines or is it a hard NO?
5. What do you think about the Estim toys, any of them like with Matt’s cock, butt, nipples, whole body things?
6. Would you like to be on display like Matt is, and being in a hood for most of the day? He does get to clean and eat without the hood and he gets one day off a week without it.
7. How did you like the Segufix that you were in, or didn’t you know that you were in it! Is it something that we can do together so that you can maybe enjoy it?

Matt and Jess are a gay couple but they both want to work, and are subs to Jim willingly and have signed a contract to hand over all control of their lives, Jim also wants them to have a close bond, and both are in love with each other. They also work and get paid for the work, but they must keep their fitness up to a high level. If you want me to, I can get them to train you in fitness and, as Matt is an ex-marine, he is very good at working out. That’s the other time he isn’t hooded.  If you want to be fully with and committed to me, you will need good training with the same standards that Jim has for Matt and Jess.  I hear that you love the way that Jess looks, with those hard muscles and the strong hands you felt in the shop and how they helped with the recovery after the blackout. He and Jim have explained what happened and why.

You have committed to me as far as chastity and to which I thank you as a Master it a great responsibility to feel someone is willing to let me have that control over you, you will get very horny, but you will not be let out of it until we meet, and I am with you.  Can you do that for me Ben and make me want to come back to a horny, needy and hopefully willing sub for me?  I do want you to go and see Jim tomorrow and spend time with him and Jess, as Jess needs someone to take his mind off what I’m doing to Matt.  I would like him to assess how fit and healthy you are and maybe start you on a fitness schedule and maybe help him out too. I know you like him, and he does have a sexy body, just a bit smaller than Matt. I do want you bulked up a lot more but getting to the same level as Jess will be a long way off, but we all need to work at it.  When you hopefully spend time with me, I will train you and take Jess’s place as I like working out when I’m not driving this truck. I am looking for a lover as well as a personal Boi toy to play with and someone to keep me company on the longer trips I do, and if you like how things work with us together you might sign a contract with me and commit to me just like Matt does to Jim.  The difference will be the personal side of this life. I know you are alone, as am I when I don’t have a play Boi with me, and you would end up being my very own special Boi. Ben, sleep well and I look forward to hearing back from you.

When I woke up in the morning I went about the normal morning duties and thought over the last 12 hours and still couldn’t believe what happened to me and then that’s when I thought about the last part chatting to the trucker.  With that in mind I thought it might be nice thing to do in sending a morning message to Sir and letting him know that I remember that I need to read his email and get back to him, but I need to go do shopping as I don’t have anything food or drink in my flat.  Then I thought to myself I wonder what he drinks when he doesn’t drive, if he was feeling like wanting something to drink IF he comes around. So I also sent him that, and ask if, when he gets back, would he come to my flat for a drink. I really want to have it already chilled and in my fridge.  When I got a good morning Ben message back, and that he would love to come for a drink when he is back and I go and spend 3 hours doing shopping, all other things that I needed to do to be able to live the week ahead, then go back to my flat and put things away. I can’t believe I done all this in my red boots!

Meanwhile I was thinking that I needed to get back and read everything that Sir T had emailed me, then I need to go and see Jim and Jess at the shop. So, I read everything and am shocked, so I read it all again and then look at the time and it is lunch time. I will see if Jess wants to meet at the café where we met the last time and with that message sent it took a few minutes for Jess to reply and said to meet in an hour if that works for me, which I said see you soon and thanks.

With that dealt with I showered and think whether I needed a change of clothes. Then I thought I would take the basic in things in my bag and I added running shoes, toiletries and a towel as I wanted to buy a few more cloths at Jim’s shop. With that in mind I left the flat.  I was early, so I got a coffee and something to eat and wait for Jess while I’m sitting in the coffee shop. In the same alley as last night I see a shadow move but think nothing of it, not having time to think about it as I saw Jess walking down from the shop. He looked a bit down as he came up to me and, thinking that he needs a hug that’s what I do instead of the handshake.  He smiled and asked why the hug, so I said that he looked like he needed it, and to thank him for looking after me last night and being willing to be a friend. He saw that I’ve eaten so I needed time to let that go down.  He asked if I wanted another coffee as he can’t do the fitness for a little while, so we sat and chatted and he messaged Jim letting him know what is going on, and that Ben wanted to buy another outfit after the fitness tests are done.  Jim said this was OK, but don’t be too long as we need to get things moving and he would get an outfit ready for Ben. He asked if he wearing his boots?  Jess showed me the message and I said I would reply to Jim, which I did and told him I was in my red boots and workout outfit and wish to be dressed similar to last night. He said ‘You got it, I know what to get and it will be ready for you later, get here soon.’  With that done Jess and I finished our coffee and went to the shop and then I saw a strange guy walking out of that alley but thought nothing of it.

So, the afternoon went well, and I thought things were OK, but I needed a shower. I end up in the back of the shop where there is a washroom that Jess told me the customers use when they have a party or demo night. As I’m in the shower Jim walked into the room. ‘Ben I’m leaving the outfit you asked for but don’t forget to pay for it on the way out,’ we laughed, and I asked if this set isn’t a free one, after the amount I brought last night? He looked around the corner of the shower and I was in range to get a slap on the butt and he said, ‘NO BEN you are cute but no, you will buy them, I have to make some money’ and walked out laughing.

So, when I walked out in everything I thanked Jess for working me to the bone and that I would be back in a couple of days for the next session. I walked over to Jim with my card and paid for the things and thanked him for the cloths.  I returned to my flat and sent Sir T a message saying that Jess had worked me hard and I would email him later that night to show him the results and my fitness. Then I asked how his day went as I just wanted to hear from him. While doing this I made my evening meal and when I had got done with that I went to the bedroom where my laptop is and read Sir T’s email again and I started to think how to answer these questions.

He sent a quick message thanking me for letting him know that things went well and he hoped that I liked the day and that he would message later as it was time to start driving again, and may not be likely to message for the night. So we said goodnight and I went to bed and him to driving.

How would it feel to being the Segufix thing, but this time with Sir T in control. How or what would happen, and am I gay and would I want to be with the trucker as his lover as well as his sub?  I dreamed about all this while I was sleeping and then I realised that I was so turned on by this man and have not really thought of anything else ever since I saw him in Jim’s shop, so I will need to explore this side of things.  With that in mind I drifted into a dream, thinking I was with the Trucker and seeing his big, hard body and being able to run my hands over that hunky man’s body; but before I can think of anything else was woken by my alarm.  Being that it is Monday morning I needed to get up and go to work. I feel the need to ask Sir what is it like to be in a gay relationship, and how would it work being his sub as well?  To answer this, he sent me a message back to say that this was something to talk about in person when he gets back and has that drink with me, but LOVES THE FACT I’M OPEN to the idea of it with him.

With that I got ready to head off to work but was thinking that it’s going to be so hard to work with all these things going on in my head, and also thinking whether I would still be working there if Sir wants me to be able to go on the longer journeys he goes on.  AAAAAHHHH, so many things to think about, but I must work! Why can’t I just have a day off and think about ‘what if.’ Feeling so mixed up I called into work saying that was sick and can’t make it in today but should be in tomorrow. Hopefully it was just a 24 hour bug.

NOW WHAT DO I DO?  Then while thinking about all the things I needed to think about I re-read the email and started the very long reply to Sir. I needed time to write this out and having the day at home gave me this chance to do so.

To be continued…

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