By Joshua Ryan
Chapter 7: Carefully Review Your Vocational Options
Next morning, I dunno, I actually felt better about goin to class. You know when somebody says you should “get a life”? But now it was like, yeah, I do have a life. You can’t see it, cuz it’s outside of all this annoying shit I’m doin around here, but I do have it. And my life could actually end up in a different place. It probably won’t, but it could! Just reading that SLP stuff—that was so hot! In high school the English teacher talked about “escape literature,” which was supposed to be bad, but I didn’t think so. Would I like to escape? Hell yes! Give me more of that stuff to read.
So that night I started reading through the Volunteering thing again, and doing it real slow this time, just to enjoy all the fantasies. I noticed a lotta shit that I didn’t see before. Like in the INTERVIEW step, when you read over what they said, they didn’t say they’d be asking what was your opinion about anything. They didn’t say they were gonna “counsel” you or “advise” you or make some “suggestions” to you, the way people always did with me. Especially my dad. Have I told you I wished he’d been more of a man? But anyways, they were inviting you to the interview so they could find out whether you would fit in, and then they would TELL you. Also, when you got to the end of a Step where you were supposed to click the button to submit whatever kind of stuff they wanted from you, there was something like, “You will be notified whether you have permission to advance to the next Step.” In other words, you weren’t in charge, they were.
